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-how funny, i pay so much for therapy and im still fucked in the head.
-just cut myself after being free for a few weeks, it feels nice. i feel like i deserve the pain. i want to embrace it.
-im mean to people, too mean. i act like shit to people who love me, i wanna be loved.
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-i know its the cliche, "i wanna be loved", how cheesy, isnt it?
-they say "grass is greener on the other side", and i completely feel that
-i thought now that i have catto, i'd feel better. i still feel empty, i feel like im hurting him. i dont deserve his love
-i really hope this is just a phase, i wanna be happy, i wanna love and be loved. i feel like im becoming more and more of an incel, wanting love and attention while not having anything useful myself
-just ruined a friendship, probably multiple friendships, just because i feel superior, i feel like im the best, while im obviously not
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-sorry. im sorry for everything ive done. i love you
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-thanks for reading my mald
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+how funny, i pay so much for therapy and im still fucked in the head.<br>
+just cut myself after being free for a few weeks, it feels nice. i feel like i deserve the pain. i want to embrace it.<br>
+im mean to people, too mean. i act like shit to people who love me, i wanna be loved.<br>
+<br>
+i know its the cliche, "i wanna be loved", how cheesy, isnt it?<br>
+they say "grass is greener on the other side", and i completely feel that<br>
+i thought now that i have catto, i'd feel better. i still feel empty, i feel like im hurting him. i dont deserve his love<br>
+i really hope this is just a phase, i wanna be happy, i wanna love and be loved. i feel like im becoming more and more of an incel, wanting love and attention while not having anything useful myself<br>
+just ruined a friendship, probably multiple friendships, just because i feel superior, i feel like im the best, while im obviously not<br>
+<br>
+sorry. im sorry for everything ive done. i love you <br>
+<br>
+thanks for reading my mald<br>
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+theres a little joke about chainsaw man fans, they say that they're downbad. <br> <br>
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+honestly, after watching the first ep, i get them now. imagine a lonely, sad guy seeing someone get love, get a hug, be loved for no reason. the thought of being loved even tho you dont really deserve it. the thought of someone hugging you just because you asked for it.<br>
+i think you'd figure out that im not doing good right now. everything is a mess. nothing makes sense anymore. i dont have a will to live. <br>
+i dont know if im going to alive anymore, i dont know if im going to suicide anymore, i just wanna stop existing for a bit. i want a break, just a few days to get stuff back together<br>
+<br>
+thanks, for everything. i'd ask for a hug but i dont deserve it. <br><br>
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+-zak, 2022
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