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diff --git a/static/malds/help/index.html b/static/malds/help/index.html index 70ba5cb..c8dbb02 100644 --- a/static/malds/help/index.html +++ b/static/malds/help/index.html @@ -1,13 +1,13 @@ -how funny, i pay so much for therapy and im still fucked in the head. -just cut myself after being free for a few weeks, it feels nice. i feel like i deserve the pain. i want to embrace it. -im mean to people, too mean. i act like shit to people who love me, i wanna be loved. - -i know its the cliche, "i wanna be loved", how cheesy, isnt it? -they say "grass is greener on the other side", and i completely feel that -i thought now that i have catto, i'd feel better. i still feel empty, i feel like im hurting him. i dont deserve his love -i really hope this is just a phase, i wanna be happy, i wanna love and be loved. i feel like im becoming more and more of an incel, wanting love and attention while not having anything useful myself -just ruined a friendship, probably multiple friendships, just because i feel superior, i feel like im the best, while im obviously not - -sorry. im sorry for everything ive done. i love you - -thanks for reading my mald
\ No newline at end of file +how funny, i pay so much for therapy and im still fucked in the head.<br> +just cut myself after being free for a few weeks, it feels nice. i feel like i deserve the pain. i want to embrace it.<br> +im mean to people, too mean. i act like shit to people who love me, i wanna be loved.<br> +<br> +i know its the cliche, "i wanna be loved", how cheesy, isnt it?<br> +they say "grass is greener on the other side", and i completely feel that<br> +i thought now that i have catto, i'd feel better. i still feel empty, i feel like im hurting him. i dont deserve his love<br> +i really hope this is just a phase, i wanna be happy, i wanna love and be loved. i feel like im becoming more and more of an incel, wanting love and attention while not having anything useful myself<br> +just ruined a friendship, probably multiple friendships, just because i feel superior, i feel like im the best, while im obviously not<br> +<br> +sorry. im sorry for everything ive done. i love you <br> +<br> +thanks for reading my mald<br>
\ No newline at end of file diff --git a/static/malds/love/index.html b/static/malds/love/index.html new file mode 100644 index 0000000..59a2861 --- /dev/null +++ b/static/malds/love/index.html @@ -0,0 +1,9 @@ +theres a little joke about chainsaw man fans, they say that they're downbad. <br> <br> + +honestly, after watching the first ep, i get them now. imagine a lonely, sad guy seeing someone get love, get a hug, be loved for no reason. the thought of being loved even tho you dont really deserve it. the thought of someone hugging you just because you asked for it.<br> +i think you'd figure out that im not doing good right now. everything is a mess. nothing makes sense anymore. i dont have a will to live. <br> +i dont know if im going to alive anymore, i dont know if im going to suicide anymore, i just wanna stop existing for a bit. i want a break, just a few days to get stuff back together<br> +<br> +thanks, for everything. i'd ask for a hug but i dont deserve it. <br><br> + +-zak, 2022
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