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diff --git a/static/malds/addiction/index.html b/static/malds/addiction/index.html deleted file mode 100644 index e02c852..0000000 --- a/static/malds/addiction/index.html +++ /dev/null @@ -1,25 +0,0 @@ -<!DOCTYPE html> -<html lang="en"> -<head> - <style> - div { - word-wrap: break-word; - } - </style> -</head> -<body> -2022, aug 31th <br> -why am i so taken away by the internet? why do i waste so much time on it? whats so appealing? <br> -IMO, i feel like the answer is easy; anonymously and connection. <br> <br> - -iirc, there was a test where people had two options to do something sinister and something nice, 50% of subjects had a mask covering their face, and that group did more sinister things. <br> -if i do something fucked up, or something wrong, i feel anonymous. i feel like im not affected by my actions. <br> -and as connection, its easier to find people in a community online. everyone feels so close and is easier to contact. <br> -again, this comes right back to my severe need of attention. i want people around me, i seriously love my online friends but i end up being annoying without wanting to. <br> -i think i already said this multiple times on the last mald, but im lonely. extremely lonely. i cant communicate with people in my country, its hard, mostly because my multiculturality, so i try to bond with people online, but i feel lonely physically <br> -i dont think im entitled to being held, but it would be so nice right now. i want to put down my shields. i wanna be comfortable with someone. <br> -i know its a lot to ask for, especially with my shitty personality. <br> <br> - -now leave, go be useful, i cant do it myself so i ask other people to do it. such a hypocrite -</body> -</html>
\ No newline at end of file diff --git a/static/malds/downbad/index.html b/static/malds/downbad/index.html deleted file mode 100644 index 30f86c5..0000000 --- a/static/malds/downbad/index.html +++ /dev/null @@ -1,25 +0,0 @@ -<!DOCTYPE html> -<html lang="en"> -<head> - <style> - div { - word-wrap: break-word; - } - </style> -</head> -<body> -2022, 30th aug -i didnt have energy for anything fancy so if you wanna read this you gotta get used to this style ig <br> <br> <br> -sometimes i feel like the world doesnt want me to feel better, i dont really believe in karma or god, its just me having shit RNG, i wish i could reset <br> -im trying my best to feel better, im trying everything i could but nothing works, its painful. it hurts me. all i want is to have a happy life with nothing to worry about <br> -i got in a taxi today cus i was late and had to get to my work in time, i had 0.5$ short of what i had to give, the driver got really angry at me. started to call me really mean names and not being nice. i couldnt do anything to protect myself. <br> -i shouldve just stopped at an atm, i shouldnt have gotten into the taxi. its my fault. im weak, a piece of shit. i couldnt protect myself, couldnt think straight, couldnt be useful. <br> -if only i could be useful to anyone, just once. i want to acompolish something, i wanna be something, anything <br> -i feel guilty for bothering nea everyday, its like she has to pay for my loneliness. i dont wanna be a bother, i was just excited to have a friend, im sorry nea, ill try my best to not be a piece of shit and annoy you anymore. <br> -i just want a hug. i dont deserve it i know but i just want a comfort zone, someone i can mald to, someone who gives a shit. <br> -i was just trying to be nice to nick, i tried my best, he doesnt accept my friendship. i just wanted a friend <br> <br> -i, echo, zak, mel, whatever the fuck you wanna call me, am the equivalent of downbad. <br> -a lonely, fucked up piece of shit. downbad for a hug, a friend, anything calming <br> -sorry for wasting your time on this, you should go do something useful -</body> -</html>
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\ No newline at end of file diff --git a/static/malds/index.html b/static/malds/index.html deleted file mode 100644 index ec692d9..0000000 --- a/static/malds/index.html +++ /dev/null @@ -1,23 +0,0 @@ -<!DOCTYPE html> -<html lang="en"> -<head> - <style> - @import url('https://fonts.googleapis.com/css2?family=Roboto:wght@100&display=swap'); -html{ -background-color: #36393f; -} -h1{ - font-family: 'Roboto', cursive; - font-weight: 900; - color: #ffffff; -} - </style> - <meta charset="UTF-8"> - <meta http-equiv="X-UA-Compatible" content="IE=edge"> - <meta name="viewport" content="width=device-width, initial-scale=1.0"> - <title>why are you here</title> -</head> -<body> - <h1>hello! you have reached the page for echo's malds. if you know your shit, you should be able to find your way into the subdirectories using github, if not, forget about it. its not really worth reading anyways</h1> -</body> -</html>
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